So tomorrow would be the day I'm supposed to be taking that bus to the airfield and watching the plane land. Watching the one I love march into the hangar and give him that long awaited hug and kiss. Tomorrow would be the day my soldier is supposed to come home.
I cant believe it would of been a year already. Time sure does fly when you have nothing to look forward to. Ive felt empty for a year now. Ever since I watched him march away I've been empty. Even emptier now, but thats one thing people dont understand. The minute he walks away the entire marriage changes.
I really was ready to go to the homecoming tomorrow. Then I actually sat down and thought about it. Why should I set myself up for even more dissapointment. I'll see those guys eventually anyway.
I have a lot of unanswered questions and thoughts about a lot of things. I'm trying to move on with my life but at the same time one of my tires is stuck in the mud.
Everything in life is so much work and effort. At this point I can give a huge list of everything I'm sick and tired of.
Until next time,